When my mom was diagnosed with cancer, she slowly began becoming more dependent on me and I became her caregiver outside the hospital. I would sometimes get frustrated when I had to help with certain tasks and wanted to lash out at her. I held it in but when I think on those days, I'm filled with so much regret and guilt that I start to cry and hate myself. I wish I were more patient with her but now she's gone and I have no way to make it up to her for having those feeling. I pray to her everyday telling her how sorry I am and how much I truly love her. Someone told me that when people die they forgive everything and hold no bad feelings. She knows I love her but I still feel bad and can't come to terms. Does anyone else have these feelings? How can we get over them?
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