in this past year, i dont even want to count how many people i know who have died. my mom being the most important. her being my mother and all. It has been a hard hard year, and the pain just doesnt want to end. it seems everytime i turn around, theres another funeral to go to. i just cant grasp wtf happened. it feels like once mom left, everyone was like hey, lets go hang out with moe. im so sick of going to funerals and feeling the same thing over and over, even if i wasnt THAT close to the person, i go right back into my moms funeral. im teriffied that im gonna die soon too! how am i supposed to not be afraid of whos next?
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