I have written in the past that my mom and I have been estranged for roughly two years and that I recently contacted her. I felt that our past dysfunctional realtionship was beginning to affect other relationships in my life and I had to tell her how I felt to break this vicious cycle of toxic interactions. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else besides me. But none the less I reached out to her and basically reminded me why her and I could never have a relationship. She was on the defense and just felt very cold.As days and weeks go by I begin to heal a little more. I am beginning to accept that she is who she is and even though I may change I can't expect her to do the same. Things are what they are and I will be much happier the day I can truly accept that.
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