I LOST MY MOM ON AUG 30,2006. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED THAT DAY. SHE HAD SURGERY 2 DAYS PRIOR TO DEATH. THE DAY OF THE SURGERY SHE WAS IN A GOOD MOOD. LAUGHING SINING JOKING AROUND. BUT IN ALL SERIOUSNESS HER BOWELS WERE DYING AND SHE HAD TO HAVE THEM TAKEN CARE OF. THE DOCTOR SAID IT WOULD ONLY BE AN HOUR AND A HALF SURGERY. BUT THE 1 1/2 CAME AND WENT. AND THEN IT TURNED INTO 4 HOURS. 6 HOURS LATER SHE WAS OUT OF SURGERY. THE NEXT DAY BLOOD PRESSURE THROUGHT THE ROOF. GAVE HER SOME MEDS TO LOWER IT. THE NEXT DAY WHICH WAS WEDNESDAY MOM HAD A LOW GRADE FEVER. SHE DIES AT 6:32 PM. BUT BEFORE THAT I WAS IN THE WAITING ROOM AT THE ICU CENTER. THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I HEARD CODE BLUE. DIDN'T THINK MUCH OF IT UNTIL A WOMAN CAME UP TO ME AND ASKED WHAT MY LAST NAME IS AND I TOLD HER AND SHE SAID THAT WAS FOR MY FAMILY. I WAS THE ONE WHO HAD TO MAKE THE DREADED PHONE CALL TO TELL MY DAD MOM IS NOT BREATHING. EVERYTHING WAS CHAOS AND THREE PEOPLE CAME TO ME AND SAID THEY ARE WORKING ON MOM. I SAID TO THEM IT DOESN'T TAKE 3 PEOPLE TO SAY THEY ARE WORKING ON SOMEONE. I SAID NO SHE IS GONE. I FEEL HER DIE AND I KNEW SHE WAS GONE. AND I ECPTED THAT AND NOW I AM STILL PAIN AND FEEL LIKE I WILL NEVER BE FREE OF SURIVIOR'S GUILT.
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