Well, I am handling life pretty good these days. This year will be the year that my mother committed suicide 25 years ago so they are thinking that I am associating my life with my mothers age of 36 since i will be 36 myself this year. They say it is like living that moment in time over again. I hope it doesn't get any worse cause it was after my mother committed suicide that my father started molesting me. I think this past 6 months have been the hardest ever.. i had a premature baby, my dog of nine years died 4 days before i went into labor, i found out i have a heart condition. I quit my job to be a stay home mom. my husbands job is now cutting him back to two weeks a month now... and on top of that I have to relive 1983. Crap.... and i was promised a job working part-time after the baby was born and I called them the other day and they said i can't work there unless it is full time. now what am i suppose to do... if i could work full time i wouldn't of quit my other job... I do find that trying to give people words of praise and trying to help them empowers my will to get past all the down slops of life and i feel like my life has some kind of purpose. any suggestions????
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