I am new to this site. I have finally decided to reach out because I haven't been doing so well trying to get through this on my own. My father passed away last July (on my 10th anniversary), and my Mother passed away this past November. I have an appt with a grief counsellor tomorrow.....where do you start!? I am the only daughter. I have two brothers who are older than I am. I am also the only one who left our home area. I not only left home, I left the country. I am originally from Canada and have been in the US for 12yrs. I know this was hard on my Mother, but I have a good husband and she was happy for me. I am trying to get the last image of her out of my head and replace it with the beautiful ones from my memory. She died of pancreatic cancer. I miss her beyond words. We became friends when I matured and became a Mother myself. I think about the horrible teenager that I was and am so thankful that we were close later in life. She would visit twice a year and I'd make it home with my family every other year. My kids were especially close to her. We talked everyday (most times at least twice). I sometimes find myself dialing that framiliar number only to open the flood gates. I am trying to be strong for my family but it is hard. I look for her everywhere. Does the pain ever let up?
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