I have read through dozens of posts and have decided to post myself. I've never read so many words that I could have written myself. For "whatever reason" I was missing my mom tonight, so I did an internet search for online support groups and it's brought me here. I'm Tammy, I'm 25 and I lost my mom to cancer(breast, bone, liver) when I was 12. Growing up we didn't talk about her death(well, my brothers would--never me). My dad never pushed the issue, never took us to counseling...but he did the best he could and he was/is an amazing dad. I know my moms death has a huge impact on the person I am today. I would think that after 13 years, things would be "easier", but I find that each year seems to get harder. My mom missed everything!! Having my dad at my graduation will never compare to having my mom. My mom missed that, she'll miss my college graduation, my wedding, her grandkids. I think about these things a lot, but I never talk about them. Even spilling my guts online is something I have never done.....and it's hard. I need to have friends that can truely say "I understand" and really do. I never talk about my mom(like w/friends) because I don't want to burden them(that's the way I see it!). I hate to cry. But I really miss what could've been had she not died...I miss my mom...and I think it would do me a ton of good to talk with people who understand.
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