I'm new here, my mom's been gone about 10 wks and it seems to hurt worse every day. I'm 43 yrs old, I should be ok, but I'm not. I miss her so bad I want to die myself to get away from the pain. All I can see is her laying in her hospital bed at the end. I'm barely functional most of the time and I don't care about anything anymore it seems. My husband found this site for me. I don't know why I'm here. Please don't talk to me about faith. I've lost so much in my life (in addition to my mom), that I no longer believe in a benevolent god who loves us unconditionally. All I really believe in is hell on earth, I KNOW that exists. I hope the rest of you find support at this site.
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