I was driving back home from my friends' house with my dad and i just couldn't shake the feeling of wanting my mommy. I wanted to cry so bad but i couldn't, partcially because i just don't like to cry, and also because there was something stopping me, i just don't cry anymore, i can't. I was thinking about when my sister wanted to get one of those necklaces that you put the persons' ashes in, my mom was cremated, and i kind of want one but i really want to get my sister one. My dad didn't like the idea of "disturbing the ashes" but i want something to link me to her and so does my sister. And then a few days ago i was looking at my moms picture of when she was in her 20's and my sister looks EXACTLY like her. Like, i started to see her face in my moms. It's just so unfair that my sister can look like her but i can't. I just want to open the earn that her ashes are in and try and put her back together. It's so hard to do this, i can't get through the pain, it's too much, i hate not having my mom. I never got to know her, I never got to have the connection with her, i didn't lose my everything, i lost my chance at having an everything, my chance at having a best friend, my chance at having a family.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...