How can it be so little time since my mom left me but yet feel like an eternity since I felt her arms around me? Yesterday was sad. Yesterday was the two month anniversary since I last saw my mom alive. We had such a good day that day two months ago and as long as I live I will always remember that day. I had cooked her lunch and my husbands grandmother came over and stayed most of the day. My mom loved her to death. They loved to pick on each other. Which one was going to get most of the babys love. Which one was going to get Kristina to say her name first. Which one could kiss the baby the most. They were really cute together when they were aggravating each other. And yet it seems so unfair, not that I want my husbands grandmother to die, but she is in her 70's and my mom was only 56. It just seems so unfair. I miss her terribly. My baby has a cold and my mom would be on the phone with me everyday checking up on her and worrying with me all night long. She would have called me 1st thing this morning and said "How is Maccaroni? "(That's what she called her) I would say she is ok but didn't sleep well last night. And then my mom would say "I was up all night worrying about that baby. I called the church and had them pray for her" That was my mom. She was always showing us how much she loved us. She didn't care if they just had a toothache she would pray that god would take it away. I love her so much, I just don't know how long this pain is going to last. I just want to see my mom and have her give me a hug. I try to hug everyone around me when I am sad but it just doesn't feel the same. Noone comes up behind me in the kitchen anymore when I am cleaning or cooking and give me a hug like she used to do. She would say I love you baby. My heart is breaking today.
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