My parents having been divorced for some time now (years) and when i lived at my mom's house i would always want to go to my dad's house and vise versa. so then my parents went to court ab it for a few years and my dad ended up getting sole custody and things were fine for awhile then me and my brother grew to hate it here! hes bipolar, mean,and ABUSIVE but only to me! probs bc i remind him of my mom. i'm the only girl in a family of me(youngest) and 2 older brothers. he would hit me and throw me down flights of stairs and expect me not to cry. then on top of all that my grandma that i loved dearly died unexpectedly and i wasn't allowed to see my mom so i turned to self harm. well one day id had enough $hit so i broke a pencil sharpener and cut my leg at school..no one would have found out if the blood wouldn't have bled through my leggings, so the school called my dad(this was in 7th grade,im in 9th rn)..and i told them not to tell him bc he would only get mad at me. so he basically came in told them if the teachers didn't see me ever again it would be bc i was at a mental hospital..A FREAKING MENTAL HOSPITAL!!!! you don't say that to a depressed 13 year old! dads are supposed to be their for their children when $hit like this happens, but no apparently i'm mentally insane for wanting to get away from his abuse and what's funny but not really funny is that he thinks i cut bc of a guy. He still to this day doesn't know it's his fault..it's all his fault, if he would let me see my mom, if he wouldn't hit me, if he would let me have a life..i've turned to cutting and minor drugs to take away the pain..he hasn't hit me in awhile so that's good but i still have that sneaking suspicion. He's a ticking time bomb that freaks tf out when he doesn't have control. He doesn't know how to raise a girl all he's had to do was raise guys and he can't get over the fact that i'm not like him and i will NEVER be like him, i don't want to be perfect… also he won't let me experience the world for myself. I'm never allowed to make mistakes, everything has to be perfect, he won't accept anything less.. Well guess what one day i WILL move out and move farrrr away from him and he's not always going to be there holdin my hand telling me what to do and what not to do. No matter how hard i try to explain how i feel he just makes it my fault or makes me completely pissed off so i shut him out. I just want to live with my mom but he's “doing what's best for me’’ Umm i'm pretty sure keeping a 15 year old away from her mother is a bad choice their bud..Especially now. In this point in my life when i'll need her the most...i just don't know what to do anymore i've had secret phones so that i could talk to my mom but he's found those so i'm screwed. I just need my mom right now but he’ll never understand bc he's a heartless monster i shouldn't even call dad…..have any Suggestions im open, just realize i've probably heard ur bs ones sorry not sorry i've just given up at this point and don't want to live so yeah.
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