I just want to thank everyone out there for their concern. It has been hard to talk about and write about what has been going on but ill tell. After I went through panic attacks about the baby in the fridge all the encouragement and tender care everyone wrote to me gave me the nerve to get the baby and take it to the crematory. I found a beautiful box with a flower on it and a heart shaped inside to put the babys ashes into. I have been on an emotional rollercoaster. Im fine one minute, the crying another. Iv been edgy and getting angry at the least little things. I have been trying to put up a brave front and acting like im ok so as not to depress everyone else around me, as the holidays are suppossed to be happy and Iv been doing a great job in pretending. I even impressed myself. I feel lost. I want my baby back. Im angry, and confused. I hate talking about it anymore, im sorry.
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