Last week my husband and I went in for our 19 week ultrasound. This is my first pregnancy and although it was a surprise we were very excited. The pregnancy had been really easy thus far aside from a few migraines. We thought we were going in to determine sex and assumed the baby was healthy. We were very wrong. The amniotic fluid was dangerously low, both kidneys were full of cysts, there was no bladder and the lungs were not forming. Prognosis was poor and the outcome for the baby was fatal. We never did determine the sex. His/her legs were crossed over the genitals and b/c of the low amniotic fluid they were not moving very much from day to day as we were going from one specialist to another. We elected to terminate the pregnancy rather than wait for me to miscarriage or for the baby to pass after delivery once cut from my umbilical cord. It could never survive without kidneys, lungs or a bladder. I have been so sad. It's the worst thing that I have ever gone through. Everyday I wake up dreaming I was still pregnant. I want to have at least one child with my husband. I fear that this may happen again. The diagnosis was either multicystic kidneys or infantile polycystic kidneys. If it's the first than it was a fluke and chances of it happening again are very low. If it's the ladder than chance of recurrence are 25%. I should be thankful that it is only 25% but I am still horrified to go through this again. I don't know how I'll ever get through this and I know I will but right now it is so painful.
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