For those of you who dont know me my name is chelle i am 22 yrs old and on 17th march 07 i went into premature labor at 21weeks.. i had a beautiful little boy named matthew he lived for 3 wonderful hours there isn't a day that goes by or a second in a day that i dont think about him or miss him. I would give anything in the world to hold him in my arms, but on monday i had a doctors appointment they have found a 15cm growh in my prosterior wall, they cant tell me exactly what it is but the have told me that i could be looking at having a hysterectomy. after everything i have been through i dont know what else to do they are telling me that i might never be able to have another child... i dont know what to do anymore my family dont support me and my partner wont talk about it.. could someone please help me i am trying not to think the worst but i cant help it.. am i ever really going to smile again?
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