Take your time to grieve. You will get jealous of other mothers with their babies, because you're a mother too, but your babies aren't here. It sucks I know, but only time will heal you. You'll never forget your babies, they're in your heart always, they're in heaven safe and secure. I initially wanted to get preg right away, but I decided to wait, because I knew I would only be doing it in an effort to try to ease my pain. But I knew that that wouldn't work, because no one can replace a life with another. Allow yourself to feel what you feel when you feel it. It's ok, it's normal to be jealous. Wait until you're in a place of acceptance, and you feel strong enough to accept whatever the next pregnancy throws your way, good or bad.