Well ok Nicholas's due date is in less then 20 days now and boy oh boy am I feeling down. I wish that instead of tryin to figure out ways to honor him on his due date(Thanksgiving Day) that I could be delivering him. I find myself crying late at night just thinking about him. I baught a necklace that I will put on for the first time on Thanksgiving. Its a footprint charm with Mommy's boy, Nicholas and 6-6-07 on the back of it. I also purchased an ornament for my Mom to be given to her on that day as well. I am still tryin to figure out ways to honor my beautiful baby boy on that day. I am asking my friends to please light a candle for Nicholas on November 22nd. I am still looking for ways to honor my Nicholas. So if you have any ideas please let me know. I just thought that this would be so darn hard. I feel like I am alone and really feel so down. I wish that Nicholas could be coming to life on that day instead of us dreaming he was. NICHOLAS MOMMY LOVES YOU!!!!
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