Around my town there are a lot of pregnant women that I see everyday. But the hardest person I have to see around would be one of my exs that I could have been very very happy with. But I chose another guy over him. Now he's got a son and its very hard for me to realize that maybe his son couldve been mine too. Its been about two weeks since my last miscarriage. I guess Im havin such a hard time letting this one go because it was supposed to change a few things and make them better. Instead, like always, it back fires and Im stuck feeling worse than before. Me and my ex that now has the son never really tried to have a baby but I bet we could have succeeded and been sooo happy. I guess Im jus havin trouble with letting him go now more than ever cuz they jus had their baby and his babys mama could have been me if i was smart enough to jus chose the right path instead of a 'safe' path. I was jus scared I guess... I wish I knew how to fix all these feelings and make me feel better.
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