Let me start from the beginning. I have been pregnant 4 times now. I lost one when I was 17, one when I was 21, one when I was 25, and now, this last one on Wednesday, May 30, 2007. I am 29. I want a baby so bad, and I feel so angry and ashamed that all these awful drug addicts and teenagers and people who don't even want kids can have as many as they want. I am angry at them, I am angry at God, and I am angry and ashamed of myself for my body killing my babies. Why does this happen. I don't have any babies yet. And, it never seems that my body will let the baby go. I always carry around a dead baby for about 3 weeks each time. I can't get past my 8th week. The most recent doctor is sending the tissue to be tested, but what am I supposed to do in the mean time. If anyone has any suggestions or comments, please feel free to comment or email me. I would love to hear some suggestions.
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