I dont know where to start. I just cant deal with it anymore. Its been about 7 months since i lost natally. I just cant take it anymore. I just broke down completly, and i still cant stop crying. Its just to hard. I dont how much longer i can handle this. I miss her so much. And i know i tell everyone to be strong and it gets better. I thought i was getting better. It was getting easier to accept the fact she is no longer inside me growing. But i just cant accept it anymore. I need her back, i want her back. I just want to go to heaven and be with her again. I miss her so so so so so so so much! Its like no one understands, i mean i know u all do! But no one else, like my friends or family. Geoff promised he would try to talk about her, but he still doesnt, he cant bring her up, he says its too hard for him. Well what about me? its too hard for me for him not to talk about her! Im losing it, really i am. I dont know what to do. I feel like im 100% truley going crazy, no doubt about it. please offer some support or advice. I JUST CANT DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE!!! please please please im begging all of you. I really need someone. please.
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