Today has been a horribly emotional day. Last year I had 1 miscarriage and 1 ectopic pregnancy. I've waiting my 6 months and have the okay to begin trying again. Last year my husband wasn't that supportive on trying to have a baby. I felt like I had to beg him to try. Anyway, we talked about trying to have a baby just last week and he said he was ready and would be more supportive this time around. Well today I am ovulating and unfortunatly my husband has to work 24 hours today. He left this morning at 5:30am. I asked him this morning to have "S" and he said he was to tired and didn't have enough time. I told him last night that I wanted to before he went to work. I am so heart broken. It's hard enough to get pregnant and now I only have 1 tube so it will be twice as hard. Plus I am still very much upset over last year. I'm so scared of losing another baby and he isn't making it any easier for me. I thought it was supposed to be enjoyable to start a family, but every single proccess just sucks. My husband said we can just do it tomorrow. He doesn't think it is that big of a deal, but to me it is. I'm crushed. One more month without a baby...
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