I know its been a while since my m/c back in sept. So many people here have had such recent losses. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant again for the last 2 months and I'm waiting to see if this is the month. I have a strange feeling that its not. Anyway, I feel like I'm surrounded by pregnant women, and women with babies. There is no place I can hide. I just get so mad that its so easy for everyone else and they don't have a care in the world and then you have me. I'm tired of hiding and I'm tired of being sad. I just want to be happy and myself again. Everything I do now, feels like a big failure. My husband tries to cheer me up but I know he just wants his wife back and doesn't know what do to except for lots of hugs. I just don't know what to do to make myself happy.
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