Well this morning I woke up and there it was the bright red blood the painful cramps and then I just fell apart. Sure I was only five weeks along but still. This is my third loss in three years and I am at such a loss of what to think. I am approaching my 38th birthday so I know time is not on my side when it comes to being a mother. All I have ever wanted was to be a mom and at every turn it ends badly. Last time I lost a baby at 6 months. My best friend who is like a sister says I know and hugs me and tells me it will all be alright. But she has never had to deal being pregnant and loosing a baby so in a way she could never understand as hard as she tries to. I feel like I am falling apart every time this happens and I never will feel whole again. Im just scared my time to have a baby is slipping away. I just need others who really understand what I am going through to talk to. This pain hurts and I dont want to cry im tired of crying when this happens. I just dont know how to deal when I hear and see friends who are pregnant or I see a pregnant woman I just want to run and hide in my room. How do I learn to deal or even start to understand what is going on.
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