I just wanted to let all of you know there is hope out there.After to months of marriage in 2002, I was finally pregnant and found out on Valentines Day.It was the greatest day in my life.We had a name picked out and everything.At eight weeks I started to spot and knew something was wrong and had to find out the baby was died by myself.My heart felt like it was going to come out.It was the worse for any mother whether you have kids or not.Doctors now days just come out and tell you without any remorse at all.I was determine to get pregnant right away.In August,the same thing happened exactly at eight weeks.After one miscarriage you just don't get your hopes up until you get passed the tenth week and you know you will make it.My heart just pained for a child to hold and to care for.My mind was set on having a baby no matter what it took.We were even picking out people who would carry a baby for us if it came to that.I knew I wanted to be a mother from day one ,but I know with all my heart my two little angels are in heaven running and playing together today.In my heart I still wish I know what they were.To be a mother I will never forget when there birthday would have been and the first one would have started school this year.God has another plan for us all and it takes special parents to care for a kid with special disability.Something had to be wrong with them for something like this to happen to great people.In February of 2003, at eight weeks pregnant I found out we were having twins.There is no twins no where in the family.I guess God knows how much my heart hurt form lossing both of my tiny little babies.I also hating God in some way for letting people have kids who don't care a thing for them or to abuse them.It not right but it does happen.I wish all of you out there the best of luck and don't give up.The only person that understands what we have gone through is people like us.It has been five years but I still know what you are going through.My heart hurts for everyone of you whp has lossed a baby in the last couple of months.
Sorry this is so long.
Sorry this is so long.
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