
Miscarriage Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have experienced the traumatizing event of a miscarriage or a stillbirth. Miscarriage remains one of the most common complication of pregnancy, but that doesn't make it easy to deal with. Join the group and find support in the company of others who know what you're going through.

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I keep catching myself staring blankly into space or out a window and not knowing how long I've been sitting there. I'm back at school full time after my miscarriage a month ago and while I seem ok to everyone around me, i'm just not.
I am always insanely busy here, and I'm able to act involved and interested in what I'm doing, but the moment I walk away this horrible emptiness comes over me and I just feel like I'm intangible. I don't think, don't feel, don't engage. I used to be such a happy, outgoing person, and I want to be that way again. But right now I find myself wishing for the "bad" days, the ones where I can't stop crying, because anything is better than being empty.
I am always insanely busy here, and I'm able to act involved and interested in what I'm doing, but the moment I walk away this horrible emptiness comes over me and I just feel like I'm intangible. I don't think, don't feel, don't engage. I used to be such a happy, outgoing person, and I want to be that way again. But right now I find myself wishing for the "bad" days, the ones where I can't stop crying, because anything is better than being empty.
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I promise that it will get better. Every person has a different coping method and some are better in a month and others take a year. Don't be too hard on yourself..what you're feeling is the same as what we've all felt losing a baby.
I'll be praying for you!!
Take care!
I know that is stupid and doesn't make sense, but i feel better when I am sad, I feel closer to my baby. When I am crying I don't have this gnawing emptiness in my chest.