I know everyone reacts differently in these situations but the pain is the same for all of us mothers. I'm still in deep mourning for my daughter, Natalie, who would be 5 weeks old today. But on top of all the greiving and sadness I also fear about having children in the future. My son is one year old and completely healthy, but I somehow fear that I will repeat the experience I had with my daughter the next time I get pregnant. And with all of the books and online articles I have read, it says that you may have the fear of what happened through your previous pregnancy up to the same time of your tradgedy then once you pass that point, the fear usually eases up. But what happens when your full term, or even how I was, past my due date, when I found out my daughter passed away? They never mention anything about that. And I don't want to be in constant fear or worried the whole time the next pregnancy ( i know some fear and worry is going to be definite but I don't want obsess over it because that can stress the baby also). I guess I just want to find ways that I can put myself at ease next time around. I think I fear this even more because the doctors were never able to pinpoint how she died. They mentioned a few issues with the placenta but they said they did not think it would have been enough to cause her to pass away.
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