I can't believe I'm going through this again. On June 18th, 2008, I lost my first pregnancy at 4 1/2 months. This year, My water broke on August 16th, 2009 and I lost another pregnancy. An infection caused the sac to break. Even though the cerclage was placed, however, there is a chance that the infection got in before. Once again, I have lost yet another son. He was 4 1/2 months just like his brother. So handsome. He looked like my husband. I chose to hold him this time. I'm not angry at God. My heart is just in a lot of pain. I have cried and cried to the point where there's no more tears. This lost is so painful because I truly believed that God had answered my prayers. Well I guess He knows best. I feel ashamed to once again have to face the world and tell them that I had another miscarriage. I feel like I failed my children as a mother by not bringing them into the world. It is my hope that God will give another chance.
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