Just Tuesday I learned that I lost my second baby at around 12 weeks after being assured by the doctor at a 9 week u/s that they had a nice strong HB and everything looked fine. I already have a 7 y/o and a 5 y/o, but was finaly ready to have the two more children that I'd always dreamed of. Now I'm completely beaten down. The odds of losing a baby after seeing a HB on u/s is like 4%, so having it happen twice is like .16%. Meaning it like never happens to anyone! Well it did to me! Now I'm seriously considering calling it quits. I can't stand to see another HB and get my hopes up again. They are crushed! And worse I'm sending my youngest off to kindergarten in a few weeks. My D&C is tomorrow. I was considering getting an IUD after my first period to consider a one year waiting period to having my tubes tied. Anyone else either struggled with this decision or have multiple losses like this? I just need to feel that I'm not alone out here. My last loss was just barely a year ago, May '07 and now this. I feel hopeless!
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