Well, I was told that you have to protect yourself. If you don't feel like you'll have a good time, because of the preggies and babies; don't go. YOu can always tell people you have a trip that was preplanned for that same time. Tell them whatever you want. But you don't have to subject yourself to feeling bad. I know that after my hubby's cousin's wife has her baby I'm not going to spend much time at his family events, because I'm super jealous, because her and I were due within weeks of each other.

One thing that I found helpful is when I read someone's posting about other pregnant women - it's not their fault that they are pregnant and I am not. When I really thought about it, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I remember the weekend I found out we lost our baby, I told one of my best friends (whose pregnant by the way) that I wouldn't wish this (having to lose a baby) on my worst enemy.

That being said, why would I be jealous or envious of other pregnant women? I would never want them to have to go through pain and suffering just because I was. I knew I needed to find a way to deal with pregnant women because right now, i am surrounded by pregnant friends and co-workers in my life, and it seems every week someone new tells me they are expecting. It has been difficult to take because I wanted our baby so badly, but at the same time, I'm happy that others don't have to go through what I went through and am still going through.

I am surprised at my strength somedays and I know I will be OK!

I had to throw a baby shower for a co-worker last week, and although I'm still sad that we have lost our baby, i am so happy that things are going well for my co-worker and she deserves my support and best wishes.

Yesterday, I even went shopping for maternity clothes with another one of my friends who told me last week she is 12 weeks pregnant. Of course, again I'm still sad that I can't be sharing the experience of being pregnant with her, but I am so happy for her that she is doing well with her pregnancy. I told her that although I'm going through one of the toughest things I've ever dealt with in my life, I am so very happy for her. I can still be sad for me, but I am not going to let my experience stop me from celebrating all the good in other people's lives.

One thing I've learned from the experience of losing a baby is that life is too short and it definitely is too short to not celebrate all the good in our lives!!!

Please try to have a good week and find one thing in your life to celebrate!!

I think it's difficult to see other woman being pregnant and having all the hopes and dreams we so recently shared. As much as we want the world to stop for us it can't and we need to try and cope with it as best as we can. One of my friends has an 11 week old baby and another is due on Friday. My baby was due 10 weeks after and we all laughed and joked about how our babies would grow up together. Sadly for me that didn't happen but fingers crossed everything will go well for my friend. When it 1st happened I did struggle but this is an exciting time for her and I want to share in her happiness, no matter how sad it makes me feel sometimes I put a big brave face on. One day it will be our turn soon.