I had a miscarriage in December, and, another in March, and, now one of my best friends is pregnant. I am extremely happy for her, but, at the same time am resentful. I do my best to be supportive at all times, but, somedays are much harder than others. I know she's excited and wants to talk about it constantly, I know, I've been there, but, I'm just wondering, am I being selfish in not being super excited all the time? Sometimes I just want to change the subject from something other than pregnancy and babies? I feel like I'm a horrible person. :o( I guess I should add too that seeing other pregnant women, especially those that are due about the time I was due (end of June) just makes me burst into tears lately. I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes. Is any of this sounding normal to anyone else??
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