Just went to a birthday party tonight and found out another friend is pregnant. I reacted well and didn't talk about it until I was in the car with my husband. I of course am happy for anyone becoming pregnant yet, I feel such a sense of anger. I am in tears. This person has been married all of 3 months and I hate her for becoming pregnant when I am not. I know this is a very typical feeling yet, I feel so guilty. I find myself hating her for not having to struggle like I have. Every person at the party tonight has had a child in the last 2 years and of course that is subject of choice when talking.Who is your babysitter? How often do you get up at night? I think I changed 15 dirty diapers today.... Ahhhhhhhhh! Just when I feel like I have over come so much I am blind sided! Help! How do I help myself deal with friends becoming pregnant when I am so desperatly trying to deal with my own loss. I continue to detest hanging out with friends because of this issue. I fear hainging out with friends thinking someone new will tell me thet are pregnant.
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