As this year comes to an end I am reminded that another Christmas is about to come and go. This is my third Christmas with my husband. I prayed so long for someone to love me, someone who God would send. I feel very blessed. I think we all get so caught up in the material things of the holidays that we forget what were really thankful for. This year has been one of the hardest in my life. After so much struggle, tests, and appointments my husband and I finally conceived in July. We lost our child in August due to complications, since then our faith has been tested but weve come so far and so fast. I read something a while back that said If God brings you to it, Then He will bring you through it. I fully believe this now. I think that when you realize your heart is broken and there is so much you should have done or could have done, and you just wonder why? Its then that God opens his arms and pulls you into His embrace. It is then that you truly believe things will get better. For these reasons I have to believe that my husband and I will conceive in Gods time not ours. There is so much that happens everyday of your life that you take for granted. Walking, talking, driving, eating, sleeping etc But you dont think about the woman who cant conceive, or the man who has speech problems. The child who has problems eating, or the woman who cant sleep. We just dont think about those things. We try to put the unhappy feelings at the back of minds, but once something like this happens to you, you realize that nothing in life is guanteed that we are not promised another day on earth. You come to realize that everything happens for a reason you may never understand. I think that my infertility and then our loss this year has made me a stronger woman. I feel like my husband and I have become stronger in our faith and in our marriage. I believe that I look at the world differently and not through rose colored glasses. During this season and the coming New Year please take the time to be thankful we have good friends, good family, and good faith. And never forget the real reason for the season. God bless
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