ok, I know the times I had sex and a week or so afterwards, I had what seemed like my regular period although a few days early and didn't last as long as usual, and then about a week after that I had what I believe to be implantation spotting, pinkish brown spotting for about three days, and then when it was time for my next period, I had one but it seemed brighter red and more watery, and then again, the next month and the next month i had what seemed like a period but they were different than normal, and I felt different, lack of circulation, just alot of pregnancy type symptoms, I was in jail thoughout this time though and really didn't think I was pregnant cause it seemed I was having period. I was getting fatter, I even felt what I learned was probably the uterus stretching pains. Ate like a horse, cravings, dizzy spells etc. then the next period I felt like labor almost, cold sweat, weak, faint, nauseous, heavy flow and clumpy, then come april, I passed in my period what seemed to gray skinlike tissue matter, I mean not a clot but like veiny tissue stuff. I should have saved it but didn't. I felt like I was four months pregnant, I thought I felt my stomach contracting and I looked four months pregnant, I was in denial I guess, never happend to me before, confusing, but after the tissue I went to the doctor a week later and they took urine and blood tests and all came up negative. I was positive I must've been, doctor never really listened to my whole story, just was abrupt with me and after tests, said I'm not pregnant, looking at me like I"m crazy or something. I said maybe I was and lost it??? and he's like I have no way of telling that, they did an ultrasound and he said it all came back normal. I was so confused. A week after that, My breasts got fuller and started producing first milk type fluid. And you know your nipples look different too, with those pimply marks around the nipple and waxy look, mine had that. I called the doctor and he just dismissed me and said, You're NOT pregnant! Maybe you need a mammogram he said! Eventually the milk went away and that was that. I wasn't trying to get pregnant, I wasn't wanting to get pregnant, I didn't even think I was until everything just started adding up and all the changes and differences in my cycle and such. I looked up all the symptoms and then realized I had had them, emotional etc.. It really bothers me to this day because I never saved any of the tissue I found and never got any validation. Just people thinking I'm imagining things. At first I thought I was pregnant and still having my period but then realized I must have been pregnant with an impending miscarriage. My cyles have never looked or been like that before. Has anyone been pregnant and had what seemed like a period for a couple months and then had a miscarriage? I never took a test myself cause had bleeding so didn't think I was until later on. I'll just have to put it behind me I suppose. I now feel like I may have had more in my life and as recently as five months ago because I learned so much about the symptoms and all. It sucks when you don't know you were pregnant until you have a miscarriage. I was on Effexor for depression, smoked alot of cigs, felt like crap all the time. Maybe the effexor messed up the hormones and all? I'm sorry I'm going on forever. Can't believe I"m writing this at 3:40 am. Just been thinking about it lately as I think I might possible be prego again like before. Will see a doctor next week.
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