You don't sound paranoid; you sound like a woman desperate to share her love with a baby.

I haven't experienced what you're going through, but I wanted to send my love and support our way.

Telling you to "relax" would be ridiculous. But keep in mind that being stressed can delay ovulation which can then delay your periods. (That knowledge has helped me to calm myself. :-) )

Good luck. And take care of yourself.

I'm sorry I haven't been on BC then tried to get PG, but I totally understand your desperation to get pregnant. After loosing a baby it seems the only natural thing to do to me. It really helps with the healing process too when you do fall PG again. I don't know what else to say really but I understand.

They say it takes up to 3 months for the pill to fully exit your system. It took me 4 months.

I am having the same feelings. I feel so desperate for a baby that I think I have become obsessed. I am now going to try and stay relaxed by throwing away the diary. Good luck to you. I am sure you will get there xxx

Thank you for all your support. I really needed it.

I totally understand what you're going thru...I miscarried in March and we started trying in May and every month I used at least 3 or 4 HPTs. It got a bit ridiculous and I finally realized that I had to calm down and relax...for a couple of reasons. One is I knew I would never get pregnant if I was that stressed and two...it wasn't good for me or my family for me to be in that place mentally. I was so sure so many times I was pregnant. I wanted it so badly that I was sure that my breasts were sore because I was pregnant. I have never ever in my life had a late period and I had late periods 3 months in a row. I really had to make myself stop buying the HPTs...Once I got myself to stop buying them "just to have in case"...it eased up a little bit. I so understand about how upset you must get after you get your period. I get so depressed for a couple of days after I get my period. Every time I get my period it makes the grief over the miscarriage even greater. I've even thought about just giving up on having a baby to stop those feelings but I just can't give up...
It's hard to say relax but if you can find a way to find some moments of peace I think it would really help you alot.

Your not parinoid your in greif. Allow yourself to feel the sadness, im stillcrying for the loss of my twin but still having hope for the one that is inside of me. You want to share your love with a baby, its your maternal instints flowing through. What I was told is the more you try and stress about getting pregnant, the harder it is, just mourn your babys loss, and use lovemaking as a way to be close to your husband, to be intimate. Love yourself and I wish you the best of luck. It will happen soon. I will pray for ;you! kisses and hugs to you!