I wanted to post and write about my horrible panic attacks. We lost our baby Savana Oct 25, 2003. I suffered with panic attacks and extreme anxiety for the next 3 years, only in 2007 did I get some relief. I even became what I call part-agorophobic. I would only travel in about a 5 mile radius of my house. I had a very small comfort zone. I couldn't go to the grocery store alone, much less anywhere else. Restaurants terrified me with all the noise and people!!! I did go back to work, but lucky for me my job was just about 7 miles away. Still, that 7 miles in the beginning seemed like an eternity. Just wondering if anyone else experienced this? I also seemed to think I was sick all of the time and had some horrible disease that would kill me at any moment. Now I know that all of it was anxiety related. Since Savana's death was so sudden and unexpected, I was constantly thinking that something else was going to go terribly wrong. Finally, most of the anxiety has ceased after 4 long years...but Thank God, I now feel like I can live and breath again. It has been a long struggle, but I just made myself do the things that terrified me and prayed A LOT!! Finally, it broke. Anybody else experience this?
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