I'm 43 and got pregnant for the 1st time 3 months ago, and lost it last week. The pain is horrible because i had finally gotten to a point in my life where i was reluctantly accepting the fact that i would probably never get pregnant. And then when i found out i was actually pregnant i was so happy, i was exstatic. Now that I've lost it i feel like i was teased for 3 months. My boyfriend has said we should wait a few weeks until we've healed a bit before we discuss trying again. This was a complete surprise so we hadn't planned it. We've talked a bit about how since we're older (he's 48) that we want to be living our lives rather than taking care of children. He's got 2 in their 20's and he made a lot of sacrifices (as all parents do) to raise them on his own. Although he was excited about our baby, he has said that sometimes he feels like he doesn't want to have to make all those sacrifices again. I feel like this baby I lost was my one and only chance at being a Mom and I'm so depressed. I feel awful most of the time.
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