On August 20th I went in for my first ultrasound, my husband and I have been ttc for over a year now, and this was our first pregnancy. We found out we were 6 weeks prego with identical twins. We were not using any fertility treatments this pregnancy was natural so we were so excited! They told us the babies heartbeats were a little low. Baby A was 98bpm and baby B was 82bpm. They told us that this pregnancy only had about a 50% chance of continuing. My husband and I stayed positive and I just hoped that everything would be ok. The dr wanted to see me back a week later to check the heartbeats, we went back on the 28th of august, and they could not find any heartbeat for either baby. I have been devestated ever since. The dr said that the babies had only passed a day or two before the ultrasound, so she wanted to wait two weeks to see if I completed the miscarriage on my own. If not I would have to have a d&c. That was the longest two weeks of my life. I loved these babies with my whole heart and was so upset, but then at the same time since we have been ttc for so long I just wanted to move on and get back to trying. The dr said to wait three normal cycles before trying again, so waiting two extra weeks just for the miscarriage to be done was like torture. Then I felt like a horrible humanbeing for wanted my babies to come out of me. I was actually wanting the d&c so I would not have to see them come out. Finally on September 10th the doctor did the d&c and now I feel so empty. My emotions and feelings have been all over the place since this all started. I am glad that this part is behind me now and I can start to heal, but now I am terrified to get pregnant again. I am afraid this will happen again. Has anyone else had any of these feelings?
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