So today I was at the mall with my mom and sister when my adopted mom stops at one of the baby stores and goes "okay you guys, (with a big smile)I need help picking something out for valerie (her sister)" and I look at her and ask why and she then looks down and away and I caught on. Now I'm happy her sister was able to get pregnant, she's been trying really hard..but I had just had a huge break down in front of my A.mom the night before over missing my baby and she did this in front of me?? I walked away and started crying. I just couldn't hold in in so I sat down in a chair and just let it go. My sister held me and just let me cry until I couldn't anymore (which was quite a while). I dont get it. My mom had spent all day yesterday at the mall with my sister and brother and most of the morning there today before I met her there...why couldn't she have done it then? Why did she wait until I was there? She said she could see why I was kind of upset, but didn't understand why I was "taking it to the extreme". I'm sorry this hurts as much as it does and I'm sorry if I'm not ready to have the fact that other people are pregnant rubbed in my face just yet...am I wrong for being upset?
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