Ok I am baring everything to everyone on this bourd.This is kinda hard for me.But i want you guys to know who I am.My name is Anna.I am 19.My childhood hasnt been all roses.I have been raped,and beatin by guys.I have suffered from depression almost all my life.I use to cut myself just so i knew I was alive.I was in the phyc unit for 2 months.I was on so many meds that I was like a zombie.I didnt know how to feel or even what to feel half the time.I dropped out of school.When I was 15 I met my now husband.We got preg our first time doing anything.We were happy and scared.I mean I was 15 he was 17.Thats a big step.I lived with a very abusive women.My fathers wife.She couldnt stand me or my lil brother and she made it very clear.Throw stuff and throw fits.She acted like a child.When i got preg she throw a fit.Flipped a chair it almost landed on her daughter.She called me every name in the book.I wasnt aloud to talk about the baby i was carring or she through a fit.Things went off the wall after my 16th birthday.March 31 i Turned 16 got called a whore slut you name it she said it.April 1st found out the child i had been carring for 19 wks was dead.All the docter did was come in and say sorry ur child is gone and left.I carried the baby for 7 days after that they induced labor April 6th and I had him Apirl 7th 2004 at 1:20pm .He was so small.We named him Alexander.I held him I wanted to belive so bad this wasnt happening will It was.April 12 we buried him.When I got home after leaving the hosptial.I wasnt aloud talking about it.Or my step mom through a fit said i did it to my self and this is proof I would never be a good mother.It was a mess with her.Well skipping ahead through the greaving and stuff.I turned 17 and found out I was preg agien I was so scared all i could think was it it is going to happen agien.I wouldnt buy anything for this baby.Well i hit 9 mouths.My due date was dec 5th I went 4 days over.They induced.I almost lost Travis during child birth.They did an emergency c-section.He was 8 pounds 6 oz 21 inches long and healthy.I was so happy.Now travis is a healthy gonna be 2 yr old next month.I love both of my children very much even though my first boy isnt with me.Now i am 19 married to the father of both my children and very happy.Just proves that what doesnt kill you makes you strounger.

The Reason i am telling you guys this is so maybe just one preson can find stregth to make it through what ever there going through.Maybe one person.Now i showed you guys all of my my story is here think what you want.But keep in mind.That you all are very stroung and if i can make it so call all of you