I wish I had some advice. Let the emotions come! Let it wash over you. Talk, cry we are all here for you. Surround yourself with your husband and family. I will pray for you! I just lost my first at 12 weeks. Lots of hugs for you hun-lots of hugs.

Oh sweetie I am so so so very sorry. I lost my first baby at 10 weeks. One month later my husband left me. We had planned the pregnancy and everything.
Anyway, I didn't have anyone to talk to about how sad I was about my baby. Everyone kept saying "you're so strong and brave", so I felt like I couldn't let my true feelings out. So, my best advice to you is to not be scared to talk your heart out. Cry, scream, punch the wall if you have to....but just let it out. If you pretend like you're ok, and get distracted from your immense hurt, it will only get worse.
I know it seems like no one could ever in a million years understand what you are feeling, and you know what? Unless they've been through it themselves, they will never know. So, find people who have had similar experiences and share your story. Nothing you are feeling is weird or wrong in any way. I'm not in your shoes, but I feel like if I had gone on antidepressants when I miscarried, it would've just made me numb. If you feel like you don't want them, then don't take them. There is a huge difference between being depressed and feeling the deepest hurt you will ever feel, the loss of a child. Maybe down the road, if you feel nothing is getting better, then try them, but I really suggest you just feel the pain until you decide you've felt enough.
It will get better though. I promise. You will never forget your precious boys, and you will think about them everyday for the rest of your life. But that just shows how much you loved them. I lost my baby in September and I think about him constantly. It still hurts....so bad.....I can't imagine that there will ever be a day when I forget, but I've come to realize that he just wasn't meant for me, but the time we did share together was the most fulfilling, best time in my life. Your boys know how much you love them. I promise. So cry for them, anytime you feel like it. Let it hurt. I know that sounds like something awful, but if you don't walk right through the pain, you'll never get to the other side. Love is all around you.

I had a similar situation. I went into preterm labor at 20 weeks I lost my son he was only 10 oz. He has no chance of survival either. When I left the hospital my doctor gave me Ativan they are nerve pills to take. For the first couple of days I took them every 6 hours. They worked pretty good but then I started to only take them when I really needed them. I cryed alot and felt like my life was falling apart. I still have the pills but I only take them when I am really bad. I think you should do what you feel is right for you everyone is different. If you ever need to talk or as me questions please let me know. It has been 3 months since I lost Nolan and I have been through what your going to experience in the next few months. You can get a hold of me anytime.

It is okay to cry and hurt. Don't hold anything back. Crying can help. We all know that it hurts. My family is new to this pain, and its not easy. We lost our baby on 3/17/07. My prayers are with you.