I don't really know where to start but I guess I will give it a shot. My daughter was born on November 4, 2007 at 5:27 a.m. She weighed 5 ls and 7 oz and was 18 3/4 in long. But she was a stillborn. We buried her on November 9, 2007. I don't know why but my husband has seemed to get over this, and I can't. It hasn't even been a month since she was laid to rest. I think that I am very angry about this. The other thing is that he thinks that I need to go talk to someone. I can't. I don't want to be called crazy or be put on pills. I don't even know if this makes any sense. I am so mad and angry at God. Everyone tells me, well, he knows how you feel, he also lost a son. And in my mind it makes me think, well if he knows how I feel, why would he want anyone else to go through that? They say that God is so loving and caring. That does not seem very loving and caring to me. I would never wish this on anyone else, even my worst enemy. I am so sad and angry and frustrated and hurt. I just want to hold her. I have dreams every night of something terrible. Like she is crying in her coffin and alive in her coffin and we don't know about it. I know this may sound terrible, but I wish she was here and I could hold her in my arms and rock her to sleep. I never got to see her open her eyes I never got to hear her cry, or give her a bath or anything and it just hurts so much. Can anyone help me?
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