The only thing that is going to help is time. I lost my baby almost two months ago, I was on a rollercoaster of emotions for a long time and I still have some bad times where I break down. They are much fewer now though. I don't think I will ever be completely over it but it has gotten easier to deal with it. For now cry when you need to and take the times you can talk about it without crying as a blessing.

I totally agree with Steph. Only time can heal this, and crying is part of the healing process. When you are alone and you are crying, maybe you can write letters to your baby. I just started doing that and it really helps. I lost my baby a little over a month ago, and I still cry at times, though it is less frequent than when we first lost her. And at times I'm now able to speak about losing her without crying. So, take your time and allow yourself to heal at your pace.

I am sorry for your lose. I lost my baby on Sept 30th - and I am still having days when I just can't stop crying. It is okay to cry - you are not alone in your pain

how i deal with it when im alone i get on ds and talk to others.

Time is the only thing that will help. This is a devastating experience for any woman. I'm the same way, sometimes I'm ok and can talk about it without crying, other days I cannot. You are not alone. Here at DS none of us are alone. We've all been through and/or are going through losses, and are at various phases of grieving.
We're here to help each other. You are not alone here. When you do feel alone, I've found that journaling and writting letters to my baby help. I am also seeing a therapist to help with everything. My husband and I also attend an infant loss support group. These all are helping me, maybe you can try these.

It is 1 month for me & I find myself doing the same thing. You just need to remember that you are not alone ~ we are all here & going thru much of the same grief. I hope it gets better for you & all of us.