After my first 2 miscarriage me and my husband split up (reasons other than that). But while we were seperated he got another female pregnant. I found out the week she delivered a baby girl. And than I had 3 more miscarriages. In september of '05 we reconciled and tried to give it another shot. In feb. of '06 he was locked up for a '04 charge. Shortley after he went in I found out i was pregnant I miscarried about month and 1/2 later. Than I found out about his second daughter. I've come to terms w/the fact that it all happened while we were seperated so that doesn't bother me. What bothers me now is the fact that I feel inadequate that I can't concieve another child. I love his girls very much. But how do I be a mother to them with the pain of my losses. I have my son but having a little girl means so much to me. His are not enough and he doesn't understand that. He feels like I'm blaming him for having 2 other kids. I'm not, but how do I continue a life w/him feeling so empty inside from all the rest. I'm pregnant now but I'm afraid that if god forbid I miscarry I won't be able to handle looking at his little girls everyday. As much as I love them their not mine. Does anyone understand
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