Last night after finally having a good day I found myself in distress again. I began bleeding excessively and had extreme pain. Within no time I called 911 and within hours was undergoing a localized removal of the placenta and fetus that was lodged in my cervix. Apparently everything I went through with the miscarriage on Monday was in-effective and now I was being asked to endure the pain of having to go through this all again and being awake and aware of it. I prayed for an end as I do now. I feel defeated, violated and broken. I was finally feeling like I'd made a turn for the better to be dealt this blow is overwealming. Silver lining? It's definately done now, now it's about recovery. I can't think of anything except getting through the next few hours...I need your prayers and comfort. You are the only support in my life that understand the pain of what I'm going through.
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