I just needed to say thanks for this website, and community! I had to have a D & C at 22 weeks pregnant, a day after my first ultra-sound. I was devastated, don't get me wrong I still am, but the pain is easing as I go. I had 2 miscarriages, then 1 live birth and this recent miscarriage. My first pregnancy came about after a brutal rape at the age of 13. I was by no way ready to raise a child, I was blessed that the Lord took this child. At the age of 20, became pregnant, and I was too unstable mentally to have a child, again the Lord took care of me. My son was born when I was 25, and he was my life savor, if it was not for him, I would not be here today. The Lord had blessed me. Now this is where it gets funny, (not ha ha funny, but weird), I was not married when I had my son, and really not in a stable relationship. I am now married, stable (mentally, physically, financially), and the Lord takes our child. I was angry, and on shaky ground (something that has not been present since 2000), no matter how much everyone told me they loved me and were there for me, there was a hole, not like there was before. I couldn't sleep one night I was so depressed, I needed to talk to someone, or just write, I couldn't find any web-site, or chat sites to help, I just happened upon this one. As I started to read other peoples journeys it made me realize that I was not alone, this was healing to me. I also realized that I am blessed to have at least one child, when so many are not. I congratulate everyone who is expecting, (this has taken me a little while to not feel jealous). We still have 2 cycles to wait before we start trying again, and I hope to be expecting again soon. In the mean time, my husband has said that I could get a puppy, (okay he doesn't really understand, but at least he is trying). Please remember, there is always hope, and miracles do happen, the people in this community are living proof of this. Thank you for everything everyone. And kudos to this website! God bless!
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