My pregnancy was unplanned (I was on birth control) Due to the hand of God I got a stomach virus and pretty much that same week from timing stand point I got pregnant. And it just seemed like fate, we we're so excited, we both want a big family and even though we aren't married yet we really wanted the baby. A couple weeks after we found out I started feeling uneasy, and I just knew something was wrong. I had some really light spotting and cramping and called my doctor and they told me to come in. The sent me to do some blood tests. And realized that my hormone levels were really low. I went through about two weeks of blood test and finally went for an ultra sound. The next day my doctor told me that the baby had stopped developing and I would be having a miscarriage soon (by this time I was about 9 weeks). I told her I didn't want a d/c, that I just wanted it to happen naturally. Well it happened naturally the day before Christmas. I don't really know what to do, I can't talk about it out loud because I start crying and the last time I tried to I had a really bad panic attack so I'm scared to now. I just want to be back to normal (and stop driving my boyfriend crazy). And I want to try to have another baby but I'm so scared to. I know I'm not ready for that yet, but I still want it so bad.
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