Boy today has been rough. I have spent most of the day crying. All I know is that I want my little Nicholas back. I still cannot believe that all this happened. I keep asking myself why. I just know that Nicholas will forever live on in my hubby and my heart. How to move on is so hard to figure out. Just when I think I am making some progress bam I get hit with more emotional stuff. I just pray that this will get easier. I know that Nicholas has REALLY been in my thoughts these past few days. I have never thought it possible to love someone so much without even meeting them. Nicholas was so wanted and loved. Again how do you move one from all this.
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