When i first found out i was pregnant i was taken by surprise. Me and My boyfriend of a year thought we were being safe enough, yet when i went in to get on birth control i found out i was pregnant. I was scared because im only 18 and attending my first year of college. Yet one day i was walking down the beach and i stared talking to her. i told her all kinds of things like how much i loved her and that i was going to make her proud of her mother. only to find out on October 7th this year that she no longer had a heart beat. after the D&C the doctor wrote me a prescription for birth control. i have been putting off getting it filled. part of me wants to wait a few years until my life is stable and i know where im headed. another part of me wants to fill the void that now exists in my heart with another child. my boyfriend was excited about the pregnancy but he isnt so sure on trying to have another baby. neither one of us wants to go through all this again. i just dont know what to do anymore.
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