I found out I miscarried in March, but I'm still feeling horrible and I keep having really bad nightmares because I still feel guilty. I know that the miscarriage wasn't my fault, but somehow, I still feel like it is. It doesn't seem like anyone understands how I feel when I try to talk to them about it. My mom said something that really hurt me. She said "it wasn't a baby yet." But I still felt it inside of me, I saw my stomach getting bigger, I experienced everything from morning sickness to moodiness and my chest hurting. I went to see a doctor but talking about it with him doesn't help. He told me to go see my family physician to see if I could get something to help me get rid of the nightmares and the depression. Now, the worst part is.. I don't know if I even really want a baby now.. My fiancee is really upset with me for thinking like that but I don't know if I can go through all this pain again, physically or emotionally. Does anyone have any advice to help me?
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