Ok, so it's been 3 weeks since my d&e. My ob said I probably would not ovulate for 6-8 weeks because my milk had come in... but I started doing the ovulation kit right after my bleeding stopped. And now, today, I am showing the 2 equal lines that mean I'm about to ovulate. We are still planning our memorial service for the baby... but I want so badly to be pregnant. I feel sort of guilty trying so soon, like I'm somehow being disrespectful of the baby, but it feels like it would take away my immense sadness and emptiness. I so want to be pregnant, but I am so afraid of losing this one too.
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