I had my last miscarriage in August of this year. Life is finally back to normal...I still think about it and it still upsets me but I understand that it happened for a reason just like all my other miscarriages, this was number 6. The thing I can't get over is the anger. I'm not angry that it happened, not angry at myself or even my fiance. I'm angry at other mothers, new mothers. I see women with new babies and get so angry that I don't have that. I have a neighbor who has a newborn and I hear the baby cry and get so angry and think about how she doesn't deserve that child(which is true...she doesn't take care of her baby)and that I deserve to be a mother again. I have a 3 1/2 year old son who is my miracle because doctors say I should've never been able to have him and I have a soon-to-be 5 year old step-daughter and I love them both more than anything but I can't help thinking how much I want another child. Does anyone else feel as much anger as I do at times?
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